Category: Difficult times

Will things ever be easy?

I walked over the green hill, past the ice cream truck, I felt good, I was on time to pick up my kids from summer camp. I parked at the very far end of the park so I could enjoy the walk. It was a beautiful day, a bit windy, hot and dry. August quickly […]

Fading Moss on the Tree Trunks

Creek, only a trickle of water left below a backdrop of tan hills. Rust colored bay leaves on the dry ground, fallen tree, roots exposed, cut, covered in dirt, spiderwebs. Moss fading on tree trunks, birds chirp and woodpeckers peck. I write on the back of Jack and Fiona’s summer school schedule as I sit […]

Been Crazy Lately

Yesterday I got a shot of fresh depression. I was tired in the morning, but I went to yoga after drop off, and felt like I could have a productive, healthy day. I decided to print out all the e-mails I’ve sent the school District. I am starting my IEP file for Fiona. When I […]

Holding

The sky is grey today, it’s damp, it’s winter. I am holding a sadness inside me. I don’t know why or how to shake it. It’s something that comes and attaches itself to me. All the sad things that have happened swell up. The mood leaves me no where to hide, no where to run.

DisComfort

I woke up yesterday morning, made breakfast for me and the kids and turned on Mickey Mouse in the kitchen. I took my coffee and toast into the living room and turned on the news. Christine Blasey Ford was giving her opening statement. I didn’t know it was going to be on live TV. Her […]

Sadness

I am so sad. My neighbors homes, a special place I go for solitude, a place i fantasize about disappearing in among the tall trees burns. When humans die we will leave burnt toxic land. We live on earth with no regard for what was here before, the animals, the plants, the air, the oceans. […]