Dark room, 2:00 am, insomnia again. I lay awake, my mind starts to race. I think about my new situation with my son, I was informed last week “he doesn’t have the skills we want to see at this point in Kindergarten”. Not much has changed since our parent teacher conference in October, when we […]
Category: Difficult times
The freeway hums in my body, But its only a memory. A fear filled memory of speed, guard rails, clear roads, fast, then sudden breaks. I do fine, day to day. I get things done. I have positive interactions with people in my community. I set up my 50/50 piece at the Sanchez Art Center […]
I walked over the green hill, past the ice cream truck, I felt good, I was on time to pick up my kids from summer camp. I parked at the very far end of the park so I could enjoy the walk. It was a beautiful day, a bit windy, hot and dry. August quickly […]
Creek, only a trickle of water left below a backdrop of tan hills. Rust colored bay leaves on the dry ground, fallen tree, roots exposed, cut, covered in dirt, spiderwebs. Moss fading on tree trunks, birds chirp and woodpeckers peck. I write on the back of Jack and Fiona’s summer school schedule as I sit […]
Yesterday I got a shot of fresh depression. I was tired in the morning, but I went to yoga after drop off, and felt like I could have a productive, healthy day. I decided to print out all the e-mails I’ve sent the school District. I am starting my IEP file for Fiona. When I […]
The sky is grey today, it’s damp, it’s winter. I am holding a sadness inside me. I don’t know why or how to shake it. It’s something that comes and attaches itself to me. All the sad things that have happened swell up. The mood leaves me no where to hide, no where to run.
I woke up yesterday morning, made breakfast for me and the kids and turned on Mickey Mouse in the kitchen. I took my coffee and toast into the living room and turned on the news. Christine Blasey Ford was giving her opening statement. I didn’t know it was going to be on live TV. Her […]