A fly just walked across the window pane. It’s 2:32pm and feels like 5 or 6 pm. Jack jumps naked from the couch to the chair, chair to couch while he watches Cars. Billy is sprawled out on the floor. I can hear Fiona whispering, I’m not sure what she’s doing. The sky is blue outside, trees have lost almost all their leaves. I feel like going to sleep right now. I finally received my author copies of Nap Time Paintings today, which included a hardback. It is beautiful, what do I do with all these beautiful books? My private opening was this past weekend, it was fun, I got to see best friends and meet new friends. All my dreams have come true, to have a solo show and to publish a book. I feel like sleeping or working in my studio today, instead of parenting! It’s just one of those days. Last night when I checked on Jack and Fiona, while they were taking their bath, I was confronted with the most disgusting scene. Jack and Fiona were laughing and having so much fun, I notice something in the tub, it’s brown, it’s three large pieces of poop! Jack pooped in the tub! He said he did it because Fiona had to poop at the same time and she pooped in the toilet! I couldn’t believe it. I had to throw away all the bath toys and scoop up the poop and wash the whole bathroom with comet. They are starting to spend more time playing together but it usually involves getting into trouble! All I must do for the rest of today, is make dinner and give them baths and make it until 7:30. I’ll worry about all the paintings I need to sell and what to do with my beautiful books another day!
Tag: fatigue
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I don’t know how I feel right now because I’m so tired. I think I’m finally hitting a wall. I’ve been doing too much. Jack and Fiona have been bouncing off the walls so it’s been easier in a way to take them out. I think. They are super tired too, they couldn’t wait to take their nap today. I just wasted a whole hour on Facebook looking at people’s pages I don’t even know. Sometimes I get lost doing that when I’m really exhausted, I just zone out. I watched a video on a U-Tube Vlog starring a family who finds out they are pregnant one day, the husband dipped a test strip in the toilet after she peed so he could surprise her, and I guess the next day after the first video had gone viral she had a miscarriage. It was really weird, they told their two little kids and she was only two weeks late on her period. Apparently a lot of people watch the Vlog, their own reality show. I wasted a lot of time, but it doesn’t matter too much. I would like to paint or watch a movie. Or what I’d really like is to take a nap and wake up feeling fabulous! Full of energy with a crystal clear mind! But what I have to do is get through today, take care of Jack and Fiona, make dinner, bath and bottle time for babies, then I get to go to sleep. What can I do now to make myself feel better? How can I muster up the energy to do anything else today? I’m just too tired.