“Wahhhhh” “Ehhhheeee” “Wahhha” Jack and Fiona cry. I start to make the bottles, half awake. Water, Toddler Transitions, 4 scoops, Dr.Browns bottle ready. Shake Shake Shake, first bottle done, repeat. It’s quiet, they drink. Today I made cream of wheat instead of toast. I made the babies some too, we’ll see if they like it. I put maple syrup in it and Nuttso. It’s really good. The doctor said just feed them what you eat. They grab the spoon, turn their face, spit it out, take it out with their hand and throw it on the floor. We had a good run on soups and stews but now all they want to eat are berries and quesadillas. They cry while I’m making their food and it makes me nervous. They have no idea what patience is. I think I figured out the way to feed them, it needs to be cut really small and they have to be able to pick it up with their fingers. I’ve always been in charge of meal prep. Cooking for your husband is a lot easier than cooking for your husband and one year old twins. If I was tired or uninspired before I could whip up a spicy chicken curry or pasta with sausage, peppers, and mushrooms. I might try to feed the babies those dishes but I don’t think they would eat it. I always said my kids will eat what’s put in front of them. I believe I was wrong!
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Dirty Laundry. Dirty Dishes. Dirty Floors: Distractions that I fight out of my mind. Babies napping now, though they may wake any time. I could write while I eat my lunch. I still may get frustrated when they wake. They may be frustrated too because they are babies. Quiet moments like these I cherish, I’m greedy for more. I worked in my studio for an hour today but that wasn’t enough time. In only three weeks Jack and Fiona will be one year old. The time is going by so fast, I don’t want to waste it. The first several months after the babies were born I was depressed, felt like I dropped everything. My whole life changed overnight. I got really worn out, I spent too much time cleaning. I felt like motherhood was bringing out the worst in me. I was a nag to my husband. I felt like all I did was change dirty diapers all day. I wanted to change and so I did. I accepted everything as it was. Let the sink be full. I take a hot bath or just relax when Jack and Fiona are sleeping. I try to enjoy every moment, even changing poopy diapers. I am fully present for Jack and Fiona and find the joy of being a mother. When I get stressed and tired I take a deep breath because, the moment will pass. Finding a sense of balance in my life with twin babies has been an introspective journey. It is a constant exercise in being aware of my thoughts, not letting worry or negativity take over. I have learned how important it is to take care of myself so I can feel good and healthy taking care of my family.
Dirty Laundry Blog by Jennifer Hynes 