My world is turning upside down again! I think Jack and Fiona are transitioning to one nap a day. Just when we established a perfect little schedule, I had time to write every morning while they took their nap and often had time to paint in the afternoon. I finally figured out what time to take the babies to play center so I could do yoga. Now it’s all changing again. If I could give one piece of advice to new moms, especially moms of twins, everything changes REALLY FAST!! This has just sunk in for me today. Yesterday the nap schedule was all messed up. So this morning when Jack slept till 7:00 and Fiona slept till 8:00 I knew they weren’t going to take a morning nap at 9:00. So I decided to take them to Early Start, Fiona’s school for children with hearing loss, vision loss, and mobility issues. It’s wonderful, but intense for someone who’s not used to being around a bunch of toddlers! Jack and Fiona were super excited! Everyone uses sign language there, I try to pick up as much as possible. I put the babies down at 12:45 today. They went right to sleep. I feel like I need a nap too. I’m drained. I’m also starting to see during every transitional period I’m wiped out. Then I feel guilty for not being as productive in the studio or with writing. And that’s not good, I need to let it go! I’ve been stressed too because we’re going on a little trip with the babies. I’m worrying that I won’t be able to write, paint, or do yoga for six days! I do this all the time. Last week when they were sick I worried the same way. My therapist always asks me, “What would you tell a friend who was feeling the same way?” This is my advice to myself. “You need to rest if you’re tired. You can’t control everything or plan everything out, you’re just wearing yourself down. You’ll have time to paint again, do yoga, and write. Just take a break and go with the flow. Don’t worry about all that stuff.”
My dad keeps calling and needs me to call him back.