Full Moon Insomnia

High in the sky the bright moon shines down on me keeping me up through the night. I am tired but can’t sleep. I’ve been thinking of my blog and my studio. My final CSET test is this coming Saturday, then I’m done with that! I am looking forward to some weeks before Fall where I don’t have to study!

Its hard to believe how things change so quickly. My life is so different now, I feel so different now about everything. I am a different person than I have been for the past ten years but the exact person I was in some ways thirty years ago. My hope has come back, its funny in life how there are people who say you can’t do something you want to do, that its not even something you should do or that is even worth doing.

People who say things that make you question yourself and feel like you’re not good enough how you are. There are always improvements to be made or mistakes you make.

But then there’s other people, who make you feel like you are perfect just the way you are and they appreciate you and make you feel good and that your dreams are worthy and important.

I suppose none of it really matters if you continue to follow your dreams. I love art and special education. It feels so right to me. So I’m happy about that. Regardless of anything else, I am happy. I am proud of myself for all the hard work I’ve put in this past year. I had a long list of obstacles and I’ve overcome so many. This is the first night of insomnia in quite awhile. I just feel unsettled tonight. Its the moon.

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