Jack is watching u-tube on the T.V., some monster truck thing. Fiona is watching a unicorn video on my i-phone. This is the second time I have let my kids, Fiona being the only one so far, watch u-tube on my phone. The reason this happened was because yesterday I downloaded Care Bear ASL for […]
Category: Depression and anxiety
I’ve been wanting to write, but not finding the time. Finally got in the studio! Feeling creative again! Feeling relieved, Fiona’s IEP is finished, she’s set up for Kindergarten, at our Homeschool!!! We get to walk! So happy about that. And, the BIG news is I took my blood tests on Saturday and my lipids […]
February Why do you do this to me February? Only two days in, wind howls, grey clouds move across sky, across body. Heart beats, tightness, no sleep. Rain drops at 3:00AM, I want to love the sound, but I need the rest. Can’t shake death. February, why are you so addicted to death? You won’t […]
Teddy Bear Pajama Picnic Day With pony tails and barrettes in her hair, Fiona was so happy. She held her pink care bear teddy with a rainbow in her lap as I strapped the seat belt and kissed her goodbye. I watched the bus drive away and still had a sadness deep inside. I thought […]
February is almost here again I have a stack of soft pink cut up paper sitting in my studio. Little pieces of paper and a quiet place in my mind where the compositions live. I am going for a walk soon, under the January sun, the large grey storm clouds scattered between light […]
We can feel pain from past trauma and happiness in the now at the same time.
Corrosion of chalk, ink on paper, words on paper, chapters, parenthood. Everything gets corroded. You learn everything dies. You learn the air will be filled with smoke from wildfires for the rest of your life. I hear the birds chirping. I sit in my house with my living room door and windows open, not sure […]