I think the world is frightening right now. I don’t think our world can sustain this level of crazy. I can’t. I just saw an article that said Russia just released a video about their new nuclear bombs.  https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/russia-just-released-videos-of-its-next-generation-of-nuclear-weapons-—-heres-what-we-know/ar-AAAjSVW?ocid=spartandhp

 I don’t know if I can believe anything I see on the news, is it Fake news? I wonder. How can I know. How can anyone know. I think the article is real. It was a frightening article. Just imagining people trying to come up with the deadliest, nastiest, weapon they can think of. The one that pollutes the earth so bad no one can live there for fifty years or more. Everything dies. There are people doing this. Countries pointing weapons at each other. Will we live through this?

I spend lots of time thinking about my new book, what I want to write- about my life, about kids, and I struggle to find the words to describe this time I live in. And I can’t think about my role as a parent separate from our world, what’s going on, and how it’s so wrong. I don’t want to burden them, and I don’t want them to ask me what a nuclear bomb is. That something so destructive exists in this world.

I want to spend my time teaching them about birds and taking them to fancy coffee shops with indoor playgrounds and rubber straws.

I don’t know what I can do anyhow, only do what I’m already doing. I could get more political. I could join more protests and marches, I just don’t want to put my children at risk, and we know that’s a possibility. The world is so violent right now. The president of my country is insane. Racist Judges are slipping through the cracks in the judicial system. Is this a rant?

I did work in the studio today and that was so good. I have a nice collection of recent work, but it’s dark, very dark. It’s all I can do.